Okay, I have spent the past hour on the phone with a rep discussing terms about Respite Care for our sons. We had Respite in 2002 due to my mental illness, my sons' mental illness', and for the fact they were very young at that time. Now, my pdoc is wanting Respite asap but there is a long waiting list just to get put on the waiver (very normal).
Why am I whiney and upset? When I brought it up that I had a mental illness and inquired if that would get us closer to the top of the list, she came back with this response and in a very rude, and snide way "If you were smart, you would keep it to yourself about who you told of your mental illness. Infact it will get you moved further down the line, and hurt you more than help you." Grrr.. Who is right? Her or the social worker who helped me previously in 2002? So, I am calling another social worker in the same office- a third party tomorrow to ask the same quesion and see what kind of response I get- Just because I am so upset!
Stigma. It really sucks. And, it was not what I needed today. Last night my sons were so naughty, disruptive, harmful, aggressive, etc., and there is no break except knowing school is around the corner. How sad is that? Hubby and I both thought we were going to lose our marbles with them. MIL and my mom just tell us- 'boys will be boys', though MIL sometimes gets it about the ADHD, when it comes to the RAD issues; she is oblivious and makes up blatent excuses for them, usually blaming us for their issues. grrr.
Do I have reason to complain? You bet!
Sorry for the long post. I really needed to talk. Right now. I'm very emotional, and cycling, have been cycling all weekend and my nerves are just very frail; too frail. Eating the Lorzephan; 2-3 pills/day now.