Facing My Fears TODAY!!! - Bipolar Disorder Message Board

can_u_help_me · 10-22-2002, 06:14 AM

Today, my Mom called me right before i left for school... it was almost surreal what happened and i'm still digesting the small conversation we had. It happens that in fact the last time my mom came and left, what i had said to her made a big impact on what she was doing to her family, me, and her own life.

She now has a job and hasn't been drinking... and, AND, shes been taking her meds and feels very secure with being herself now. i told her that i'd like to talk to her in person, so shes coming to see me from dayton today after school lets out at 2... im really excited and nervouse and my legs feel like jelly.

just wish me luck, and it was soo weird me and my mom had a connection of heart last nite, we didnt talk nor neither of us knew we were thinking of each other. i cried myself to sleep last nite about alot of things and she happened to be one of the main reasons and she said she couldnt sleep very well last night either for the same reason, she was thinking of me.

and we ended our fone convo. with the simple words we always took for granted, but this time it meant more to both of us, "i love u"

thanks for all the advice and ill post and let u know how it goes....

YEAH!!!!!!!!

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u never knew me, so u'll never forget me...

zionspegasus · 10-22-2002, 04:44 PM

Per request, wishing you luck, crossing my fingers, hanging the horse shoe, rubbing the rabbit's foot, etc

Great news for you and your mom. Hope it works out well.

kayciemc · 10-22-2002, 09:44 PM

Hey I just replied to the other post you had, I hope you read it and I also hope all goes well. Please let me know what happens.

bev52 · 10-23-2002, 01:06 AM

Hey,

We're all pulling for you

and wishing you the very best!

With Kindness,
Bev

can_u_help_me · 10-24-2002, 05:59 AM

date with my mom
well, the meeting with my mother went well and she picked me up after school then we cshed my paycheck and i wanted to make her feel special... so i took her to ruby tuesdays and told her to order anything on the menu... it was about $40 for dinner but it was one of the best dinners we had.

we had talked about so many things including her bi polar, but shes not taking any meds right now. i told her she really should be on it anyway, then she told me she wasnt bi polar... i dont like that shes in denial... but baby steps at a time...
thanks for all the support. she wants to keep coming and seeing me on a regular basis which is good but sometimes bad.

she expects me to drop my whole life and cancel any plans which is hard to do with everyone im trying to please right now. my 5 best friends demand attention and then my bf will get jealous and then my dad gets upset that im never home and then mom mad bc i cant make time for her, and i cant even make time for myself anymore. somedays i just wanna take a bubble bath and tell them to all just go away.. is that alright?

another thing is ive developed 2 phobias since all this started around the age of six. i dont ever like to be alone... i know it sounds childish but i cant. and then i have a phobia of being overweight.

when i lived with my mother in florida, i stayed inside, got depressed and ate all the time bc of it. i had no friends and no reason to care. is there a safe way to keep weight off? sometimes i go for a week at a time not eating and its really bad.
i have lost alot of the weight but i still am constantly self concious.is it normal?

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u never knew me, so u'll never forget me...