Feeling the downward pull, everything is off-center - Bipolar Disorder Message Board

leftofcenter · 08-25-2006, 11:30 AM

I have had a rollar-coaster of a year. I got fired from a job I had held for almost a decade (that I hated). I was unemployed for a month. I have had major financial difficulties. I am in a stressfull, unhappy relationship. And I got a really good job that I am finding myself becoming more and more disgruntled with.
I feel like I am spinning slowly down a well, I'm just waiting for that final "splash". I don't know how to stop it!! I am on an SSRI and Depakote, and a benzodiazpine to help with the anxiety. Nothing seems to work anymore. I am anxious, jittery and irritable from the moment I wake up (with clinched jaws), to the end of the day. All the things that used to make me happy do not. I am stressed and irritable all day, this can't be good for me. I fear I will lose this job if I can't get my act together.
Anyone else out there experience this and does it go away eventually?

ronniesteers · 08-25-2006, 12:20 PM

When was the last time you talked to your doctor? Please talk to him/her. I have been going through a tough time myself and had to call my doctor 3 times before I finally got to talk to her. I also set up an appointment with a therapist (although I might cancel). Good luck, I'm feeling blue and irritable too. Yesterday was very bad and I hope you do follow up with your doctor as soon as possible. Keep calling if they don't call you back at first. Hope you feel better. I know what it's like to feel miserable, even when everything is supposedly "going good" for you.