 Feeling hopeless
Hi all. I have been terribly depressed and also extremely anxious. Been alone for 5 days now and I almost have lost my voice from talking to myself. I still see my fiance, who has to go back to Canada, if I don't marry him before August. Last week my dog got lose and pooped on the lawn in this mobile home park where I live, and the manager started yelling at me. After that I started yelling at no one and almost was in a rage. Things are getting hard for me to cope with. I turned down a job interview even, and my ssi only covers my bills, so I've been scrimping on groceries. My fiance expects me to marry him, and live in my mobile for 2 months alone, after the marriage, while he gets his citizenship straightend out and finds a house to live in 100 miles away from here. I had decided not to get married, but I have been going back and forth trying to decide all over again. Also I broke some glasses and coffee cups last week, just tossed then in the sink with glass flying! And was yelling at the walls about my problems. I'm hoping to calm down soon, because I am taking my meds. Another thing I sleep too much during the day and I do stay up late, but still sleep alot. I just needed to vent and I hope everyone else is doing well.. I know things will get better..thanks for reading this..bi-polar is hard to handle sometimes...
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