pbarjranch

I know this sounds so trite, but: "hang in there!" I know some of how you feel, and I have to keep telling myself that it only "feels like" I'm going to be this tired, depressed, etc....forever. But it will get better!! Don't give up hope. That's when it is easiest to fall headlong into suicidal thoughts--so please don't go there, okay?!
I wish I had some fantastic words of wisdom, hope, and encouragement to share with you. All I can offer you is a listening ear, an understanding heart and prayer. God is always there for us when no one else is awake, or no one understands or we feel no one cares. He loves you and maybe he sent me to you tonite just to tell you that. I was just going to bed with a headache and thought I'd check one more time to see if anyone answered my post and somehow in my fuddled state of mind I read your post and found myself writing to you. Well, I am blithering to you at this point--you are not the only one feeling zonked out, only mine is partly from the migraine meds I took so I can sleep with less pain. But just remember: there are folks out there who do have a clue what you're going through. You are not alone! Take one day at a time and don't overwhelm yourself with "how am I gonna's".
I hoped something I said helped at least a tiny bit. This seems to be a great venting arena, so go for it and get it off your chest.
Best hopes and wishes for you Whiskey!!
From someone who was unexpectedly guided to read your post.
AZ/OK Jo- pbarjranch