Need someone who can relate? - Bipolar Disorder Message Board

pillbug · 09-04-2003, 11:43 AM

Hi all,
I am having a lot of problems right now and getting out of bed in the morning is getting harder and harder. I am seeing things (very scary) and I haven't slept all night in a month (night mares). My husband try's to be supportive but he wants me to ignore stuff when I see it and it just seems so real it's hard too. I cut my leg last week when I couldn't take things any more. I had two panick attacks yesterday at work and evertime someone talks to me I freak out. I have been taking my meds religiosly for a year so why am I having so many problems right now?
pillbug

jgurl1976 · 09-04-2003, 11:59 AM

hey slow down........ It's ok. You will be ok. Please do not cut yourself call someone, and call your Dr. & Talk!! IF you dont talk to him/her your wasting your time & money. You must bond and trust your Dr. otherwise dont bother! If you do not like that dr. find another! Find one you like & trust!! Ive read your other post and I know your dr dont know about alot of things that happend to you. You owe this much to yourself! They cant help what they dont know about. Find you some good help. I'll be thinking about you!
Jen

pillbug · 09-04-2003, 12:22 PM

Thanks Jen,
My doctor is awesome, he knows whats going on right now and wants me to check in to the hospital but I can't afford to miss work, I'll lose my job. I just have to try and be ok and stick trough it. It will get better eventually.
pillbug

BP-2 · 09-04-2003, 01:19 PM

Hang in there Pillbug, things will get better.

What med's are you taking? For how long? Have you had med change lately?

I just went through a HORRIBLE period - due to a med change . . .I was in bed in the fetal position for 23 hours a day, for several days. I had MASSIVE anxiety, could not stop crying on the days when I managed to get out of bed, but was otherwise debilitated.

Do you have any support beyond your husband?

pillbug · 09-05-2003, 07:45 AM

My parents are also very supportive. I take wellbutrin, celexa, depakote and untill 2 weeks ago I took zyprexa my dr just changed it to seroquel.