I seem to get sick mostly in the winter. And when Fall comes I get scared. I wonder if I'll make it through the winter without getting sick. The hardest part is I'm kind of torn between attending to my feelings and trying to cheer myself up. I don't want to be in denial (if I really am not well) but i don't want to dwell on a down feeling either. I'm scared to pay attention to myself, and i'm scared not to also..
Hi
One day ata time is a lot easier to deal with, or (odat) kind of sounds funny so when you start to worry just rememder odat, it a humorous way of reminding yourself that's all we get is one day at a time. Next thing you know odat winter is over. Just remember to take extra good care of yourself be kind to yourself. Some people find the full spectrum light theraphy is also helpful. You can find them on ebay at discounted prices. Wishing you a winter full of bright happy thoughts. K
You are not alone. I have told myself this year I WILL NOT be crying over the Xmas dishes.
I dread October. That's when it starts. Can't get out of bed. Once out want to go to the pub and drink.
I also did a 'light lamp'. Can't say I thought it helped much; my husband hated it too because I needed it to come on an hour before I actually want to get out of bed. I have heard many positive reports though. I think knowing it's going to happen is a start; but i think a lot of us hate having to go back to the doc for more meds to help....
In England in the winter it doesn't get properly light until after 8am and gets dark at 4pm for about 10 weeks. My condition is best if I go to bed by 930pm and get up at 5am; except during the winter. My husband and I recognise I will eventually (when his kids are old enough) need to move somewhere with longer daylight hours and warmer climate. I lived In Oz for 2 years and I was the healthiest and happiest I've ever been.
I sure know how you feel. I got my bipolar disorder from my mom's side of the family, and my Dad had Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) pretty bad. They spent the last 10 years he was alive in Florida from Oct. into May.
I tend to just suffer through it, although I'd be much smarter to try to find a med or light treatment to help me.
Not only does the sun disappear more than normal in the midwest about now, my arthritis kicks in and every joint in my body aches.
Ok, guess I'm having a bipolar, menopausal, arthritic, SAD type whine right about now!!!
Ruth
a poem for you to read each time you feel the need.
The rainbow rose from this lasting storm,
slow mackerel clouds obscure the sun
the great ceremony, so it seems, like the elephant
the horizon was connected lazily.
The bird that parade, being caught and smiles, blushing,
with her nest which strong wind completely have undone
In wandering blues is thought
The careless eye to whom summer is illuminated
As for the quiet nonchalant dawn
From death she has discreetly been stirred
Syllables sound of slow archangels
Imagined
when she is awaken
