my husband was away on business last night. Also my clonazempam ran out on Sunday, apparently I'm not allowed anymore because it's addictive....?
I DID NOT SLEEP A WINK LAST NIGHT. I am so tired today, eyes like sandpaper but brain going round and round with things to do.
It's dull and drizzling.
Went to the doctor yesterday to get more Depakote. Was with my hubby who was checking on his recent ECG results (all clear
) doctor (GP) said i seemed a little manic....hubby said "what? we got a long way to go up from here LOL
" Doc was like "you're kidding?". Anyway, I was thinking to myself last night as I walked down our garden, which is about an acre to our studio to get something, whilst at the same time, cooking my daughters vegetarian nut roast, my own steak curry, had the iron out, had started the skirting board in the downstairs toilet (to cover pipes), burning new paylist on home PC (this is my laptop i'm on now).....just to give you a picture....'thank goodness for the meds, how how high would I be now without them?'
Eventually go to bed, medicated but no alcohol or caffeine, and just could not sleep. Eyes pinging open every half hour, whole body sorting of jolting awake, with ideas just buzzzzzing. Tried to write them down to clear my head. Convinced AGAIN there is a madman in the house going to kill me and Charlotte.....WHAT IS GOING ON? A HYPO I GUESS.
WANT MORE SLEEPING PILLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!