chameleon199

I have been diagnosed bipolar for 4 1/2 yrs. i really never thought about it tho--i was on lamictal 100mg and stable. Recently, i stopped taking meds and I started having panic attacks. I got back on meds and now I am on 75mg and feeling better. But, I am still having problems--I cried all wknd. My husband is in the navy and he is gone a lot. He is looking at getting picked up for the officer program. Which will be a great career move, but i am scared of being alone for longer periods of time. right now it's 2 months. But it could be as long as 6-9 months on a surface ship. I want to be able to support him and care for our kids. But everything I read is so scary. I had very few problems before, but now I am being pressured to take an anti-psychotic and more meds. I was fine on lamictal before. But everything i read says I will continue to get worse and need more drugs, that all have horrible side-effects. I don't know what to believe at this point. I see my 3rd new doc friday, and i hope he is supportive.