Re: Losing faith in myself!
Hello Wis Gal
I wish I had the words to give you immediate comfort, I dont as I've been were you are many times. Ive been in the psych ward 3 times, once put in isolation because I got angry with them as they wont let me see my list of meds I was allergic to but insisted I take new meds. Some mental health nurses dont have proper training, patience or understanding but unfortuantely they have the final say. I lived in my bedroom for days, haluncinated, hibernated, didnt trust a sole on this earth. I could go on and you would probably see yourself again and again. The good new is you will get better, finding the right med cocktail is often the hardest part, because everyone is different. In time you will learn to listen to your body and ward off the worst of these hard times. You will learn to find what works for you to help you feel better or find a way to force yourself to take one step and another another. For me when I feel myself spirialing, I go turn on my 70's music, earphone and disappear into my music it's an emotional high. I've also found by accident certain foods can send me into an awful negative depression so fast I dont realize what hit me. Such as sugars, anything with corn surup. Another words all the good stuff, : ( Just remember just because the sun is shinning dont beat yourself self up, treat yourself as you would your children when they are sick. Another idea is to set a small goals for yourself and as your meds slowly kick in it may help relief some of your feelings of helplessness. Like watching a show with your children for 30 mins. Take 15 mins to listen to your families day or 15 minutes and read them a story. Anything simple, short etc. Increase or decrease depending on how your feel. I wish you a quick recovery. Just know you're not alone and things will get better. Take Care, Sue