When you are on meds & you think you are feeling better, are you actually feeling less bad & is it worth it? here is what I mean...
... Ok lets say you find a med or combination of meds in the right dose to where you have less manic episodes (although you still have some) & you have less depression (although you still have some). You have been taking this/these for some time.
So you have less symptoms. Do you find yourself feeling truely happy? Do you function as a normal person? Do you still enjoy activities that you used to enjoy?
My experience was that if I took enough meds to level out my symptoms, they leveled all my moods. I wasn't really depressed but I definitly didn't feel happy. I lost interest in activities & lost my sex drive which complicated my marriage.
Very true honest interesting posting. I dont have any immediate solutions for you but I can offer a few idea's to try. For many lost of sex drive is sometimes due to the antidepressant. There are a few antidepresants that do not cause loss of the sex drive such Welbrutrin and Effexor nor do they cause weight gain. As for the level of moods I used to sit and ponder that frequently. Sometimes just experimenting with your meds with your doctors approval of course can help you find that niche of feeling more like you.
Dont give up, it could be something very simple or just a few different adjustments. It's our choice to feel nothing or bug our doctor until we feel
better. Hope things start improving for you soon. Take Care, Sue
Thanks for the kind words. I'm pondering this looking back as I am now 100% symptom free (& 100% med free). It would seem as though this 16 year nightmare has finally ended for me with a simple hormone injection once a month.
I feel so good now so I look back & the best I ever felt on any meds (I've tried many, many different ones) was only a very slight improvement. Like I said I didn't feel "good" I only felt slightly less bad. I don't think I realized it at the time.
Could you elaborate on the hormone injection? I haven't heard anything about this. What type of hormone is it? Who gives it to you? How did you decide to try it in the first place? More info please!! tsohl.
I started seeing a new doctor. He had some blood work done & found my Testosterone level to be very low. He told me he has found that men who have depression/bipolar/anxiety/etc. many times have a low level of testosterone. I got my first injection that day & I have felt great ever since.