Sometimes it is just a positive thing to review what you have said in the past :
On 6/26/2005 you said: "I bounced around for several years into and out of the hospital and various programs. A few different dx's had been suggested, but bipolar was almost always in the mix. Finally I ended up at a pdoc's office and on the first visit told him that I had been told I might be bipolar but that I knew I definately was not. He said 'Okay, you might be correct, so we'll go with that for now . . .' and prescribed a mood stabilizer.
A few months later I was back in his office after quitting meds (again) and royally screwing up my and my new husbands life. This time he told me that he thought it was time to revisit the subject of being bipolar and proceeded to lay out for me all of the many reasons why I fit the dx. Then put me back on the mood stabilizer . . .
He was the first pdoc that managed to get me anywhere close to stability. He was always very direct, honest and recognized that I had a mind as well. Boy, do I miss him . . . Someday I'll have insurance again.
Now,you say (10/26/2006) :
Change is always difficult, good or bad. Of course I also worry that it won't last and I will feel even worse after experiencing the contrast. Still, the most challenging aspect is that I feel so adrift.
Perhaps, over the last year and half, you are starting to realize that you can,in fact,take over on your life and find stability.
I am sorry to bring up your past posts. However, I just feel that you have the final knowledge within yourself to acheive stability. You need to know that the power comes within you.
A year and a half of posting about it,seems to prove that point