Re: stand up
If I were in your situation, I would look at the relationship with the firend and see if it is really worth it. I have learned that part of manageing my bipolar is removing myself from some situations that set off my triggers. That did include parting ways with some people. You have to worry about you, and take care of yourself. As for what it has to do with, it could be a mixture of many things, and that is something only you can decide. I wish you well in trying to find what works best for you.