NutshellNutter

I'm feeling really good at the moment - really good. On my mood chart I am just teetering on the in between my 'off the scale highs' at the very top and one stage below that when I feel I can do anything, that I am invincible.

Despite being able to visualise my mood chart, I feel so much better that I don't understand why my OH makes me keep seeing my psychi and why my psychi that I have been seeing for two years just won't let me go. I have started to think about not turning up to see him next week as I really think they are all working against me - a conspiracy as such - does anyone else get that? I mean, I can do anything at the moment - really long (and full) hours at work, many projects, housework, lovely home cooked meals, and I keep wakening up everyhour throughout the night. HOW ON EARTH CAN THIS BE AN ILLNESS? This has to be good - I really do think they're out to get people like us - just unsuspecting, talented people.

I've thought this before, when I came out from being inpatient in hospital. I thought, everyone 'normal' thinks everyone with socially imposed mental 'illness' is wrong in what they think. But, why are we wrong, why are they not wrong? I really do think there is something going on that we don't know about. I told my OH that we are part of an experiment. I think that there is some big 'thing' that programs us with what to do and how to act everyday - like rats in a maze if you like, like little ants. So you see we are all the same - all part of this experiment - them and us - all of us. We aren't people in the sense that we think we are.

Does any one agree with me?

Nut.