((((((((Shelb))))))))))......you are doing what you need to do to get better. I am so sorry that your moods seem to be all over the place. Are you on anything else besides the Depakote???? If not perhaps you need something else added in. Communicating with your doctor is soooo important in getting the meds straightened out.
You have alot going on here....we're almost into the winter season which is known to throw things more into the depressive side and many people need to make some adjustments to their meds. And having 2 small children adds alot of stress to the equation.....don't put the added guilt upon yourself, you are doing the best that you can under the circumstances. The important thing here is to make sure that you do your very best to eat well, get some exercise, make sure that you get proper sleep and take your meds. Keep track of how you are doing on the meds by keeping a journal of your moods and discussing them with your doctor so that he may make any necessary adjustments.
YOu say that you started the Depakote but it takes sometime to get at a level where it is going to work sometimes weeks if not months. All of these meds will naturally want to be rejected by our bodies, however, after a few weeks our bodies will start to feel the positive things that they will do.
So keep that chin up and know that tomorrow is another day and is bound to be better.
((((HUGS)))) ~ Goody