Hi to you Dut:
Listen you are who you are and will do what you can do untill you change
You have reconised you have a problem and that you wan't to change it .i'm not saying that you can cure it all , but by reconising you have a problem perhaps you could go to your doctor and get help as your halfway there' as the Buddha once said " the longest journey begins with the first step "
So why not take the first step ( if you allready have with recinigition ).
Good luck and good whishes to a good man.
Reguards Scullyboy ( Steve )