Re: Bipolar forever
Just to tell you you're not alone.
I was diagnosed bipolar 2 1/2 years ago after a full 5 years of hell (ups and downs, it was like the friggin KAMIKAZE ride at a fair). I've been on meds for 2years, mood stabilizers and either anti-depressants or anti-psychotics, depending on little Miss M or D, plus sleeping pills.
I have either good or bad news, whichever applies depends alot on your individual situation.
Bipolar is something you will have to deal with for a long period of time. It usually manifests in teenagers when the hormones are going crazy and body chemistry is absolutely out of whack. I remember being different when I was younger, before puberty, and more sensitive, but never had the mood swings. Those started about 12-13.
It is possible that your situation will calm down over time - i've been told by my doctor that perhaps in middleage things will become less severe. But until then I have to deal with this.
And I know the frustration. Honestly for me knowing I had bipolar wasnt sooo much of a relief, just that now instead of asking "what the dickens (ok i use more colorful language than that) is wrong with me?" I end up being able to objectively blame bipolar. 'Stupid bipolar!' is one of the thoughts I have most often when I'm going through a change. So it is good to know.
As for decisions - if it is essential to make a bigger decision when you know you're in the "danger zone" (and honestly, you are able to start doing that much more easily when you recognize your internal thoughts and feelings, as well as your outward reactions to stimuli - you begin to say, "uh-uh, this is not me, this is not how I'd normally react, or normally feel; if these types of reactions repeat for a week or so I go see my doc - it's better to head them off at the pass instead of falling in fully. Sorry for straying so much from the topic) the best thing to do is talk with someone you trust in a comfortable manner - someone who knows about your bipolar and your history and is level-headed at the time. A dear friend or family member is usually best; I found out after years of fighting her tooth and nail that the best person for me is my mom. They can help you make a good (for you) decision, not hasty, and maybe offer other points of view. This is the best thing to do initially. An understanding psychologist who is willing to be straight with you is also invaluable.
Since I was diagnosed I've changed alot - growing with this is a process - and you do learn to cope with things better. That doesnt mean i like it. I hate it.But I am also in the process of dealing with it, and it comes with time.
Sorry to ramble on like this, I guess most of my advice comes from experience so I needed to explain somethings. Hope it helps a bit. And good luck, this is not a fun thing.But, to give you some perspective, here's a list of some people you might know who are also bipolar:
Interesting, at least.
Also, inform yourself as much as possible, as questions, look on the net, it's best if you understand you diagnosis and how it affects you.