Help!! Normally this time of year is something I look forward to. The beautiful decorations, trees, music, etc. Infact, the music, is something that I've been listening to since October- that is how excited I get about this time of year-
Yes- Pathetic!!! LOL
Normally I am one of those people who bake like crazy, and for everyone. I usually start baking the week after Thanksgiving. This year, I got into a mixed state, and was so depressed that I wasn't able to do that. It took a toll on me. I couldn't function or do anything. Then I became physically sick from 'that'. What a mess! So, I started baking-
this week! And, there are people who actually expect and demand cookies from me- like my sister-in-laws, family, friends, and neighbors. Mostly, my two sister-in-laws are the two main culprits. One of them always is polite and thankful every year and I am grateful for her sincerity. The other one, well, she is less than so. Rude might express her ways of gratitude.
So, I'm very stressed, and am not enjoying the baking at all. I'm still trying to get out of the mixed state. Physically I'm drained, exhausted, and tired all the time. I'm going to bed at 7:30-8:00 every night. That isn't fair to my family. Can't keep the house clean. It is a disaster- and that is not like me. Normally it is spotless. So, I feel very icky about myself right now. Plus, we are to have Christmas with my family on Christmas Day. So, I'm stressed about that. I just feel YUCKY and GROUCHY.
Sorry to vent. I just feel SCROOOGED!!!!!!!
OH, and I have to re-wrap presents because one of my sons unwrapped almost every single present we put under the tree. And, the presents we didnt put under the tree- all who knows how many, need to be wrapped yet. So, re-wrap and wrap- AHHHHHHHHH... I enjoy it.... but no time!
Has this happened to anyone else here? Has the shopping or holidays gotten to you this year?
Someone, send Rudolph down to save me!
Coffeegirl
Just wanted to jump in and send you some (((HUGS))) and let you know that I am thinking of you. It's great to see you posting again....I really missed you.
I thought the dermatologist was joking but she was dead serious and said this rash was going around!! I was thrilled that it wasn't the one from the Lamictal....we are now at 125mgs and with the 300mgs of Seroquel we seem to be doing quite well. What a relief and difference we see as compared to last year when we weren't properly diagnosed or on meds. Things are really so much better so I think that the way to feel more in the Christmas spirit is to be able to see the good things that we have even amongst the bad and hang onto the hope that things WILL get better.
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