foggy... - Bipolar Disorder Message Board

Llama · 02-02-2007, 11:59 PM

I don't know why but I've felt so foggy in the head if that makes any sense. Also I feel so blah and slow and just sleep all the time. I have no get up and go; no energy anymore. I go to work but hate it and am so bored all the time. Then I just come home and eat or sleep or zone out on the couch.

Are these meds making me worse? I stopped the seroquel already and am just taking the lamictal 200mg. I haven't called my pdoc but will make an appt for about maybe 2 weeks from now. I don't think she'll believe I'm the same person. Am I taking a down swing? Maybe I'm not bipolar after all? Or is that just wishful thinking? I am so confused! I could use your advice guys!!!

paranormal · 02-03-2007, 06:41 AM

Hi Llama. yes it makes sense. i use that word myself to describe how my mind feels to me sometimes.

i don' know if i am bipolar disordered yet, but ti'll still let you know of my view and tell you that, to me, this seems to be a type of depression. did you think of suicide or contemplate too much about death in general? or are you just "zoned out" like you said, as if you are just merely going through th emotions of daily life with a detached relationship between your mind and your body? or possibly even both?

if it feels really serius to you then let your doctor know about it.

usually with medication, it depends how long you've been taking it for, but the best thing to do is to not change anything unless with the direction of your doctor. if you were up, and this is a downswing in comparison to your excessive happiness, then this does not disqualify you from your diagnosis, especially since the med should stabilize you, as i reason it might feel depressing because you're coming down from a high

I hope that helps somehow. take care Llama and let us know how you're doing

Llama · 02-03-2007, 09:14 AM

thanks paranormal. I think you are right about it being depressing coming down from a high. Thanks for that perspective. That helps.

I know I shouldn't be messing with meds on my own. It's just a bad habit that I have.

Lastly, to add to this all, I just stepped on the scale and I have gained another 10+ lbs. I haven't been this heavy in a LONG time and thought I never would. I am very upset about this!

tsohl · 02-03-2007, 09:20 AM

Not to be a nag, Llama, but are you still drinking?

Llama · 02-05-2007, 03:32 PM

Just wanted to update you guys! I have been feeling a lot better. I started taking the whole 200 mg of lamictal at bedtime and that has really helped. Plus I think that this higher dose has finally begun to kick in a little. I'm feeling more stable these past few days. I hope this lasts!

And tshol, yes I am still drinking but I have cut back a lot. These last couple weeks I really went overboard and I think that in part had something to do with my ex boyfriend (yes I broke up with him because I wasn't attracted to him and I don't think he was good for me emotionally - there was just too much drama and intensity all the time. It was really making matters worse, you know?).

ANYWAYS, all we ever really did together was drink. If we would hang out in the evening it would always be about going out somewhere. I mean in moderation I really think that can be ok (like maybe once or twice a week), but not every single night. And we always had to hang out with his friends and guess what? All they ever did was drink. I was spending too much time with him and his crowd, and it wasn't a good thing for me. I have other friends who drink in moderation or who rarely drink at all.

ANYWAYS, I am just proud of myself because I think I am making a healthy decision here. I need to do more of that for myself. What do you think? Do you think I made the right decision regarding that relationship? I don't know. It really is a major decision and I like to have back up. (and I am not one of those people who "needs" a boyfriend! hehe!

So I'm fine with being on my own for a while! Just in case you were wondering!)