Cleaned house today! - Bipolar Disorder Message Board

Llama · 03-12-2007, 05:15 PM

Oh my god you wouldn't believe how nice my apartment looks!

It was a total pigsty and now it's pretty clean! No more crap or clothes or anything on the floor! I had to burn off some of that energy somehow! I'll be able to sleep on my bed tonight because I cleared off all the clutter!

I feel so good! I'm going to go to the gym, shower, get ready, then go sing some kareoke later on! I have to work at 9am, but I don't care because I know I wouldn't be able to get that much sleep anyways!

I don't want to call my pdoc before my appt. Is it wrong that I really LIKE the way I feel? How can that be bad? I know that there may be consequences but I try not to think of them. All that should matter is that I feel good, right? I think deep down I know this is wrong, but I keep thinking of going off all meds. They can't be good for me to take long-term anyways. I don't know, I just feel so alive right now!

tsohl · 03-12-2007, 05:49 PM

Hi Llama,

You are being facetious, right??

You aren't really asking these questions seriously?

Did you ever mention how old you are?

I am not going to bother replying further.

Tsohl

Dantheinsane · 03-12-2007, 07:45 PM

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Originally Posted by Llama

Oh my god you wouldn't believe how nice my apartment looks!

Is it wrong that I really LIKE the way I feel? How can that be bad? I know that there may be consequences but I try not to think of them. All that should matter is that I feel good, right? I think deep down I know this is wrong, but I keep thinking of going off all meds. They can't be good for me to take long-term anyways. I don't know, I just feel so alive right now!

I myself love being manic, there is no drug as good as the high. Of course that is ignoring when I am making a total *** of myself, spending myself into the poor house, destroying my marriage, and etc.

But that extra energy is lovely. I usually start new projects around the house, like building a new fence, or reroofing the whole house, and hope that I can finish before that energy is gone.

We are told to accept our depression as a way of life, that means our manic high is also a way of life. Enjoy. Maybe you can clean my house next?

Just remember if you change what you are doing now you will feel different.

tsohl · 03-16-2007, 05:35 PM

Hey Llama ~

How are you doing?? Just thought I'd check in to see how you were doing and to say hi. Did you stop taking your meds entirely?

Hope you'll post soon!

Take care,
Tsohl

plainjayne · 04-01-2007, 10:09 AM

you are going through a manic phase so you want to stop taking your tablets???its not like you are gonna be feeling like this forever is it?why did you get diagnosed in the 1st place? you will burn yourself out soon and wish you never went ott and stopped your medication you are being totally irresponsible