Self medicating by drinking - Bipolar Disorder Message Board

munchie11 · 03-16-2007, 05:01 AM

I haven't drank in like 2 years and tonight I made the decision to drink. Life sux and is just so boring lately and very depressing. I feel better now, but I know I'll be even more depressed when I wake up in the morning and have to face things againg. But why not say f*** it sometimes and just give in??????????????? Life just sux dosn't it...........

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sharonamy · 03-16-2007, 06:44 AM

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Originally Posted by munchie11

I haven't drank in like 2 years and tonight I made the decision to drink. Life sux and is just so boring lately and very depressing. I feel better now, but I know I'll be even more depressed when I wake up in the morning and have to face things againg. But why not say f*** it sometimes and just give in??????????????? Life just sux dosn't it...........

Munchiexxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Yes, it sure does. I am undiagnosed 30 years waiting for diagonis. Have been on anti depressants over 20 years and also selfmedicating every night !!! since then to calm down.................am now on librium and finding it v. hard

gortian · 04-14-2007, 12:38 AM

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Originally Posted by munchie11

I haven't drank in like 2 years and tonight I made the decision to drink. Life sux and is just so boring lately and very depressing. I feel better now, but I know I'll be even more depressed when I wake up in the morning and have to face things againg. But why not say f*** it sometimes and just give in??????????????? Life just sux dosn't it...........

Munchiexxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

As long as I take my meds on a daily basis, I don't have a desire to
self-medicate (alcohol and drug abuse).

jgr01 · 04-14-2007, 05:01 AM

Well, since I've been on my meds initially i had no desire, but with a house move, and birthday (mine) i did feel the need to have a drink. Sometimes i choose to have a drink because i like it - btw when i say have a drink I mean proper drink. I generally have a small glass of wine everyday with dinner, but plenty of water too. When I get extra stress the meds don't seem as effective - that's well documented. Of course I have already built up an unhealthy relationship with drugs and alcohol over the years even on meds (didn't realise the comorbidity) not so that i am an alcoholic, just alcohol dependent in certain situations.
In short, I have a day or two binge, know exactly how I will feel afterwards and then have to struggle for a couple extra days not just to fall back into drinking and stopping the meds being effective.

You know you shouldn't drink/drugs; if you do don't kick yourself even more, just get back on the wagon to sanity.

Juliet

Dee-nah · 04-14-2007, 06:45 AM

Wow.. I hope everything is okay! I never self medicated but I do see why one would... When you wake up in the morning act like it's a new day and don't go backwards!! If you beat yourself for something you did you are defeating the whole purpose of moving on and thinking positive. This disorder is a lot harder to handle then I thought especially when your so caught up in either the depression or the mania, give yourself a break, what's done is done....