posting for a friend, please help her! - Bipolar Disorder Message Board

leomia · 04-24-2007, 10:10 AM

Hi all, my friend is very confused. She sort of has manic depression I think, not sure which type and she hated her doc so there is a struggle of going there (I am trying to get her to see a new one that WILL listen and understand!)

here is what she said to me today in email:

"I didn’t really know what else to do and thought you’d understand. I feel really low at the moment and have a strange sense of guilt for some reason. I’m finding this very overwhelming and don’t really feel like I’m here (like being in a dream). Not sure what to do but thought it might have been something you’ve experienced.

It’s like I’m floating and that everything is blurry. I think it’s more that I feel angry with myself but I don’t know why. I’m sorry I’m not explaining well – it’s so weird, I can’t even describe it but it’s like I’m two different people.

This is the line that you wrote:"

I dont ever mean any of that but I feel like someone takes over me and makes me be such a horrible person, then I get the guilt thing I give to myself for being a bad person. It sucks. - that was me ...

"That’s it – it’s like I know I’m saying and doing something wrong but I can’t stop.

Thank-you so much for being a wonderful friend. I know my other friends try to help but with you, you have a greater insight. I was once on citalopram (anti-depression tablet) and the doc wants me to go to counseling but it made things worse in the past. "

I believe that her past doc experience had something to do with her feeling the doc did not seem to care much about it and made light of it. I could be wrong, that is the impression I get and I myself had that issue for a while, but as you all know, I am fighting it to get what I need with meds and help and the like.

Please can anyone or a lot of you try to help? I will copy all replies to her, and maybe that will motivate her to come over here and join.

any takers?

thanks so much, everyone

Leomia

marshmallow · 04-24-2007, 01:27 PM

Leomia's friend, you would enjoy the message board so much. The people are caring and so helpful. There is always someone that understands what you are experiencing.

leomia · 04-24-2007, 03:02 PM

yes she would but she is sort of afraid to ask anyone else for help so ~I will see if I get any ideas to tell her and see if she will join!
thanks!

Leomia

BPBDPCO · 04-24-2007, 08:17 PM

Hi! i have had the whole jackle/hyde thing for 8 or 9 years. My father, aunt, and grandfather had it, but i was the first to seriously seek help. very few people in my life currently understand what it is like, some even tell me that i am making it up. I just joined this site, and chatting with others who know the symptoms has really helped. Hope you find what you need. 19yearoldBP

emeraldeyes114 · 04-24-2007, 10:27 PM

You have a very compassionate and caring friend who is trying to reach out for you. I hope you will come to the board and meet the wonderful members who are on here. I have learned so much through their eyes and with their words and experiences. You don't have to fight this alone or feel like no one could possibly understand. Here is a place full of wonderful caring people who have a lot of knowledge of the things you are dealing with. There are therapists that do listen and care very much so don't let one egghead ruin it for you. Fight for what you need. Fight for the life you want and deserve to have. And come be a part of something that is almost a family on this board. Wow! I think of that and the Christmas card list just grew in leaps and bounds....better start now...ok lol sorry a silly moment but laughter is good medicine too.

Hugs to you and I hope you join very soon.

Eme