Re: relationship woes do to my bipolar
I know where your coming from - bipolar highs and lows can be extremely detrimental to a relationship, it certainly came very close to destroying mine - we broke up and got back together, and now things are much better. The key is communication. My partner didn't understand why I'd get REALLY mad and start screaming, or get really hyper, or be so depressed that I'd just want to hide and fade away - but now that I tell him what I'm feeling, and why, he does his best to understand. It's not perfect, but we work at it each and every day.
No one else has said it, and I hope you don't take offense hon - but you need to get control over your abuse of drugs and alcohol. These things don't mix well with bipolar disorder, nor do they help your medications do what they are supposed to do. It would be very hard for your boyfriend to watch you doing this, if he's read anything about bipolar on the Internet, he probably already knows the affects of substance abuse on people with bipolar disorder. Talk to your pdoc and/or tdoc and be strong - we can all take control of this disorder, there is no need whatsoever for it to control us.