Sending some (((((HUGS))))) Dee-nah!! Just remember that this feeling won't last forever and hopefully the new meds will kick in and bring things to a better balance for you.
Perhaps you should look into a support group....nobody truly will understand what you are going through other than somebody who is walking in the same pair of shoes.

Heck, as much as I would like to, sometimes I honestly don't understand my daughter and I would really like to.

Sometimes family members just don't know what to say....and if you are anything like my daughter no matter what we say sometimes we get yelled at and after a while just listen. It doesn't mean that we don't care but sometimes we just don't know which words will make you feel better.
So perhaps joining a Bipolar support group will be just the thing for you. See if you can get in touch with **** and they will direct you to one in your area.
Hoping that you come out of this soon ~ Goody