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Amy50 · 08-02-2007, 07:08 AM

Hi Marsh. I hope you remember me. I haven't posted in a couple of months and just looked the board and saw your posts but can't go back far enough to understand what happened. It appears as though your husband passed away. If that's the case, I am so sorry and am wondering what happened. This makes me so sad!

marshmallow · 08-02-2007, 07:37 AM

Amy, yes of course I remember you. I have wondered many times about you. My husband passed away on July 8th and it has been so hard for me because I had served him with divorce papers even though I still loved him so much. If you remember he would not get help and I had tried for 9 years to no avail. I didn't want to give up but he had become involved with lots of alcohol and drugs along with spending tons of money for foolish things. I just had to do something and yet my heart was not in it. My emotions are very mixed up right now.

Amy50 · 08-02-2007, 07:46 AM

Marsh, words are hard to find. You tried so hard todo the right thing and that it had to end this way is awful. I hope you know in your heart and mind that you did everything you could to help him for his own good but self-preservation was important. You tried to find the right balance to keep yourself sane and I hope that you never beat yourself up for doing that.

I tried to find your post to EYES on the other board but couldn't but I am glad to see that you're getting support there and here. Please accept my deepest sympathy, this has to be tremendously painful for you. You were and are my favorite buddy on here. Love ya, Amy

marshmallow · 08-02-2007, 07:52 AM

Amy thank you so much. It is a really painful time for me. All those years my focus wan on trying to help John and now it leaves a huge void and I miss the times when he was ok but towards the end their were few times. I have had times of guilt and what if's but have come to realize it won't change anything. I am seeing a therapist and going to a grief group. People on the board have been wonderful but I am glad your back and hope you stay. I always love your comments and your kind heart.

twoeyez · 08-02-2007, 09:15 AM

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Originally Posted by Amy50

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I tried to find your post to EYES on the other board but couldn't but I am glad to see that you're getting support there and here. Please accept my deepest sympathy, this has to be tremendously painful for you. You were and are my favorite buddy on here. Love ya, Amy

To Marsh : I'm happy that you are seeing a therapist and greif group. Is this the **** group? Remember we talked about learing to listen so that you can share your emotions and thoughts a little easier. Know that you have all the time in the world to heal. And it's Marsh's time to grow and start anew

Amy: I'm happy to see you back. I truly hope your own situation is on the mend and that you are learning to live a good life. You shared so much with your reading knowledge. One book you told me about was "Healing Anger" by the Dalai Lama. I have read the book a number time as a true way of learning to control of Anger. It is so phyosophial that I learned to deal with my own Anger inorder to "learn the Dalai's teachings". I hope you continue to post,Amy. You have a lot to offer. And you are truly a giving person.

Marsh's thread on the "Grief & Loss" Board is call "sad news". you may want ot share a thought for her,there.