Update on my situation... - Bipolar Disorder Message Board

Paige1989 · 08-03-2007, 06:10 PM

Hello all,

It's been a while since I posted so I figured I'd give a brief update.

The Fair was GREAT! I love it every year, and this year was no different...it's a major stress reliever for me. And I got two rabbits out of the deal, though one is my brother's. ^^

School is a month away as of tomorrow and my anxiety is starting to come back full-swing. I'm staying on top of my summer assignments, but it's still hard to stay calm...the closer it gets, the more nervous/anxious I get. My tdoc has started on talking to me about my future and how this school year can be, both the positive side and the negative side. We've discussed future plans quite a bit and it's made me more anxious...I'm also looking at a new job. I applied yesterday and the hours, should I be hired, are more conducive to the schoolyear schedule. I'll have more time to do homework and get other things done, and might even have a fragment of a social life. XD The job is perfect for me - it's an afterschool program for elementary schoolers and I'd be helping them with homework, doing activities with them, etc. I LOVE working with kids so I can't wait, providing I'm hired.

Other than that, I have to make up my Driver's test tomorrow and I'm really nervous about that, too. I don't think I'm ready for it, but if I don't do it tomorrow or Sunday, I have to repeat the WHOLE course. :S

And I didn't sleep well at all last night...I kept waking up in the early morning hours so I've been exhausted all day. Remembering to take my meds has also proven to be a problem...the last few days, I've remembered them, but before that, I had trouble remembering to take them on schedule and sometimes skipped dosages altogether by accident. Right now, I'm making a conscious effort to remember them, though. I need to be on a med that'll help me sleep, I think...too bad Seroquel was too sedating. >.<

Well, that's about it, I think...nothing too hectic being it's summer...

Paige

tsohl · 08-04-2007, 08:04 AM

Hi Paige,

Glad to hear about your activities. I hope you get the job. it would be perfect for you and for your career plans. We'll all keep our fingers crossed for you!!

Good luck with your test. Take some deep breaths to focus yourself before you begin the test.

Hope you can njoy the rest of your summer. Don't worry about school. it will be here soon here.

Take good care,

Tsohl

goody2shuz · 08-04-2007, 08:24 AM

Hi, Paige ~ Glad to hear that you have two new rabbits in the family. What did you name yours?? And how is your dog doing with the quarantine???

Take one thing at a time, Paige, and it will all fall into place. Try not to look any further than today and focus on doing your best with what you need to do. Then when time allows look another step ahead and soon you will see that you are managing things just fine.

Erin is working two jobs and I worry about that....one as a cashier at a local grocery store and then off to McDonalds where she works the drive through window. She says it keeps her busy and not bored....I guess that is good but it is long hours. She does have off Monday-Thursday this week for a review for one of the state tests that she wants to retake....she got a 75% and feels that she can do better. The retake is on August 16th.

I hope you do well with your driving course...I would hate to see you have to take it over for one class so I hope that you are able to get the day in either today or tomorrow.

Well it was great to hear your update....try to keep up with the meds taking them the same time each day...that is so important...okay???

Thinking about you and of course sending you lots of ((((HUGS)))).

Love ~ Goody

Paige1989 · 08-04-2007, 08:45 AM

My rabbit is named Rowena (after the Founder of Ravenclaw in Harry Potter) and my brother's is named Padfoot (Sirius Black's nickname). They're only about nine weeks old.

Glad Erin is keeping busy for the summer...it's understandable that it worries you, but being bored during the summer entices teenagers to do things that I consider unwise...I.E. my sister and brother's habits of wandering around town with friends that I don't particularly trust...>.> But I'm trying to accept that because the more I berate them, the more likely they are to do things even more risky. <.< Good luck on Erin's state tests! Our tests are on a scale of 600 and you need 400 to pass...but they don't let you retake them as long as you pass because the pass/fail doesn't matter as long as you pass. It's not averaged into your GPA so they don't care...really they only give them because of No Child Left Behind and it's more to make sure teachers are up to par...

And I'm trying really hard to remember my meds...I'm doing better right now. I think my problem before was being constantly busy. >.<

And I'm finishing up my school supply shopping today.

That's my favourite shopping trip of the year...I know, I'm incredibly odd. :P I just love getting new everything for the start of the schoolyear and somehow it calms me slightly because I know I'm prepared...

Well, back to summer reading. I'm half-way through.

Paige

Paige1989 · 08-05-2007, 06:11 AM

Grr, I took the Driving Test today and failed it miserably, throwing me into a bout of depression, but luckily it was relatively short-lived. We didn't have time to go to Wal*Mart for school supplies so we're doing that today...I had to work, which wasn't too bad because my friend was working the same shift. However, I had my least favourite manager, who is the most strict, so I got irritable with that and it didn't end when I got home...after I watched some TV, though, I calmed down a bit and went to bed realllllly early (for me, anyway - it was ten-ish)...I hadn't meant to go to sleep, though. I was just watching TV on the couch and zonked out so I forgot my night meds. -__- But I've already taken them this morning and I figure I'll take them a bit earlier at night to avoid accidentally falling asleep early...I'm still anxious and I'm irritable on-and-off...but I started charting my moods again because of the anxiety/irritableness and my troubles with sleep.