Heh, I definitely know I'm different, in more ways than one. But, as much as I dislike the bipolar, it's part of what makes me unique. ^^ And even though there are those who look at me oddly or think I'm weird, my best friends are behind me 100%. I mean, I know my moodswings freak some people out (like my younger sister's friend...), but I get used to it...I figure I can't change it so why go to the trouble? But I do know where you're coming from. I've felt "different" since I was ten and my parents split - that's when the bipolar tendencies really started to stand out, even if I didn't get treatment until I was 15.
yes, i know exactlly what you mean. some people think i react weird to things or say the weirdest things, even some who are the closest to you. sometimes very uncomfortable.
I remember the first time someone commented that I am 'weird'. It's occured numerous times since but at this point I don't care. It's what makes me me. Sometimes I feel uncomfortable or out of place, but then I just try to make myself think of how boring those other people are I also try to substitute the word 'eccentric' for 'weird' ... doesn't sound as negative, ya know?
"Wierder than most". Yup, it appears that in my life's reflection, I am thorougly, totaly wierd. It's more than obvious when observing the way "normals" treat men.
Totally! I have Manic-Bipolar the 'highs' more than the 'lows'. When i was younger in intermediate school humor took over me, it was how i got friends really as i could find something funny out of anything..little did i know or care that others-who disliked me (for some reason ) were calling me mental? (well not the real mental) i must have looked silly! I thought being different in my ways was just well..ME, my personality you know. Its not just me?..it has a name? Well that explains everything!" Now at 20yrs old i may have looked silly in my life but i dont care, why change yourself to try & fit-in or look-normal because thats just not WHO U ARE, who are they to judge you?!
I have come to Realise and Accept who I am inside not the opposite, i feel at ease with myself & around others I feel great with my Super-Happy self! I cannot imagine myself any other way really! At least wen im in my mid 30's my impression to others will be young & bubbly inside! thats got to be a bonus you think?
"Know me before you judge me"
I hope that as you grow older, your positive outlook and the good grace of understanding friends will continue to boister your ego.
However, please get a doctor that you have confidence in, and take the medicines they prescribe.
I'm much older than you, but I can clearly remember how I felt about "my true self" and the reactions of others. Those happy faces, not sure "what I am", "giddy - wierd - 'wow - what is 'wrong' with liza?" too 'hyper',perhaps "bizarre" "different?' Grasp ahold of your self as much as you can, before the disease progresses much more.
I hope that as you grow older, your positive outlook and the good grace of understanding friends will continue to boister your ego.
However, please get a doctor that you have confidence in, and take the medicines they prescribe.
I'm much older than you, but I can clearly remember how I felt about "my true self" and the reactions of others. Those happy faces, not sure "what I am", "giddy - wierd - 'wow - what is 'wrong' with liza?" too 'hyper',perhaps "bizarre" "different?' Grasp ahold of your self as much as you can, before disease progresses more.
Yes. I didn't used to think this, but, considering I've lost 3 jobs in the last month, I definitely do now. I think that I hide things pretty well most of the time, but apparently not. I just wish I knew what it is they see so that I could try to fix it. I'm pretty happy with myself as a person, but this not being able to hold down a job thing is causing ALOT of stress (emotionally, mentally, financially, etc.), which certainly doesn't help anything. I'm even thinking of applying for disability. I don't want to be labled, and I want to support myself on my own, but this is getting ridiculous and causing a ton of self-doubt....any advice would be very helpful.
If that is the case. I have been weird since day 1!!
I always make a lasting impression on everyone, a good one - not always bad. I leave a on some. or what the f____K??? It's all good. I want people to remember good, bad or ugly. I dont care. I laugh, joke around, sometimes I don't make sense. But who cares!! I make life interesting!! I want to be one of those little old granny's that has friends of all ages! and life of the party!!
What I can't stand, you make friends with some, once they get to know "that side " of you. Then they try to find a way to get away from you. It's like a curse or are a strange, weird. But before there was nothing wrong with you before? and NOW there is?? I believe everyone has something "wrong" with them, even being a b_____H is a curse!!! LOL!!!! but we still deal with "those" people dont we??
But, as much as I dislike the bipolar, it's part of what makes me unique. ^^ And even though there are those who look at me oddly or think I'm weird, my best friends are behind me 100%. I mean, I know my moodswings freak some people out (like my younger sister's friend...), but I get used to it...I figure I can't change it so why go to the trouble? But I do know where you're coming from. I've felt "different" since I was ten and my parents split - that's when the bipolar tendencies really started to stand out, even if I didn't get treatment until I was 15.
I also try to substitute the word 'eccentric' for 'weird' ... doesn't sound as negative, ya know?
Re: Do you feel "wierder" than others? 
) were calling me mental? (well not the real mental) i must have looked silly!
Now at 20yrs old i may have looked silly in my life but i dont care, why change yourself to try & fit-in or look-normal because thats just not WHO U ARE, who are they to judge you?! 
thats got to be a bonus you think?
