Hi, Kalee...I have a 16 year old daughter who started out with some self harm (cutting) and went on to thoughts of suicide which led to her taking a bottle of Aleve. This all happened around the time the hormones kicked in but seemed to be triggered by the deaths of her Nana and a Great Uncle within weeks of one another. They say that this is very common if somebody is predisposed to be Bipolar, that some type of loss or major stressful change in life either by death, divorce, major move, etc. will trigger it. Has there been an event that has occurred in your life that preceded these moods, self injury and suicidal thoughts??
Also...is there any family history of depression, mental illness, or drug/alcohol abuse??? That would be something that would make if more likely that you have something going on that should be further checked out.
Have you shared any of your concerns with your mom or dad??? The only regret that I had is not getting my daughter the help that she needed sooner than I did. When I found out that she was cutting herself she convinced me that it was something alot of kids did and that she only tried it. And when she took the pills and came right to me I took it as a stupid impulsive thing that she did at the time. But eventually things worstened and we had no idea what was going on until she was accurately diagnosed and treated. Things are so much better now that she is on the right meds and she is back to doing well without having such thoughts and fluctuating moods. Now what we see is the normal teenage behavior which is so much better than seeing her before she was diagnosed.
I would suggest that you share your concerns with your mom or dad. The only way of truly finding out is to go to an adolescent psychiatrist who will do an evaluation to determine if you fit the criteria for Bipolar.
Please don't be afraid...IF you do have Bipolar the sooner it is diagnosed and treated the easier it is to treat and less years will be lost to feeling badly as you do.
Also...my daughter disliked being in crowds and with people too before being on the right meds. It was as if she had to act or feel a certain way that she just couldn't which made things so uncomfortable for her.
Some of the signs that teens show are lots of agitation, irritability, anger which are signs of both depression and mania.
As already mentioned, there is a poster, Paige who will be able to help you out since she is a High School Senior and will be able to relate well to you.
It is good that you are coming here to seek advice. You shouldn't ignore what you are feeling....if it concerns you then it is important for you to have it checked out.
Good luck and keep us all posted with how things are going.
((((((HUGS)))))) ~ Goody