Cornered and hurting - complete frustration - Bipolar Disorder Message Board

tony72 · 10-31-2007, 08:44 AM

*** Vent **** Not my usual happy post.

Someday's I wake up in a really good mood, only to come across something that upsets me which ruins my entire day.

I'm ready to give up and stay in a shell - letting no one in. I simply can not take it anymore. My best friend is moving across the country and all my other friends are falling of the world.

I just want to withdraw and forget I ever reached out to them in the first place. Maybe people who are not affected by BP can handle this...? I can't. I don't think medication can cover this feeling up.

Distressed, Daisey

There is no stability anywhere for me.

FallenAngel2007 · 10-31-2007, 09:33 AM

Daisey, I know how you feel. I'm so sorry you're in that place right now. I was in a really good mood the past few days then hubby had to ruin in last night just being a jerk. As far as the isolations of this illness goes, i go through that as well, i have periods where i just totally withdrawl and isolate myself, don't answer emails, don't answer my phone when it rings, i just don't want to be around anyone or be forced to talk when i just want to curl into a ball. Damn, sorry didn't mean to turn this into a rant, lol.

Listen Daisey, I have seen you respond to many people here, you are such as asset to this place and to the members here, you brighten so many lives. So just keep in mind no matter how bad your day is, you bring light into the lives of many others.

Angel

SweetDeanie · 10-31-2007, 09:42 AM

I just wanted to offer some words of encouragement too. You helped me feel so welcome within minutes of me joining this board, and offered me a little light in the dark. I know things are really really hard for you right now but if you remember that it is not you that is failing and you really are a rock to other people it might help. Also sometimes some time out to reflect can really help I find as long as it doesn't turn into a more long time and harmful type of isolation. I think you have the right to take some "me time". Maybe try having some nice hot baths with relaxing oils and light some candles, really try to chill out and let yourself feel pampered and luxurious. Remember that you are worth it and if you want to have a good cry let the tears come too. If only I could take my own advice huh? I'm thinking of you and wishing that things get better for you.

naturemomma816 · 10-31-2007, 10:14 AM

Daisy,

I just wanted you know that I ditto everything everyone else has already posted. As you know I am in that place right now also. Your words encouraged me, just yesterday, to find my way outta this. I am now forcing myself to be outside and do some much needed yard work. I am so not in the mood for it, but I guess that's what the "forcing" is all about. I always look forward to reading your posts and get great enjoyment from the things you write.

As far as waking up in a good mood, (only to have it trashed), we all share your pain.

Please let us know how your day goes, I'll be thinking of you.
Naturemomma

Angel, my hubby was a jerk last night too - maybe it's goin' around. hehe.

tsohl · 10-31-2007, 10:43 AM

Dear Distressed Daisey,

We can't have any distressed Daisies down in the dumps!! That just won't do. You can see from others posts that you bring a lot of sunshine to people on the board.

Sounds like a cloud has come across your face today...and I am sorry for that.

Did you just find out your friend is moving? I know how devastating that news can be.

Please feel free to vent. You don't always have to put on a cheery voice to come here. Let others have a turn supporting you for a change.

Try to do something nice for yourself today.
And know we're all sending (((((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))) )))))))))
your way --

xx Tsohl