Hi KateMonster,
Of all the years I have struggled, I too found myself wondering what in the world I could do to bring myself up. The best thing for me has been confiding in someone I trust so I have an outlet to talk. Thankfully, I have the most wonderful and understanding husband in the entire universe. He can sense when I am at my worst and gives me ample opportunity to talk about it. If you have a close friend or family member that can listen, perhaps that can help. Of course, that is only if you feel comfortable telling someone about your feelings and struggles.
I have also found (in the short amount of time I have been here) that members here are extremely supportive and caring, even to perfect strangers! Stay connected-we will all help each other!
~J