Newbie - Bipolar Disorder Message Board

Fox87 · 01-23-2008, 12:20 PM

Well, due to my wonderful self and this possible "funk" that I'm in, the marriage counselor seems to think I'm BP2. I've read the symptoms and some of them are there. I've been real honest w/her and basically answered some serious questions. Like: "When was the last time you were happy?" To be honest I can't remember when. I do notice that my temper is "quick to snap." The marriage is going down the tubes casuse of my melancholy self. Told the counselor that I don't have feelings like normal people, I basically don't care about stuff. EVEN STUFF THAT I SHOULD BE CARING ABOUT! There's more to it than this, as I'm sure most of you are aware of. I set an appt. to speak w/the head shrinker.

Currently on Lexapro 10mg for anxiety. This was due to work related stress that I let get the best of me. The stress got so bad Vertigo crept up and I could barely stand. Nervous to see what the DR is gonna say.

ripka · 01-23-2008, 04:36 PM

Hi and welcome

I am also new to the boards, but not to being bipolar. Over my life of learning to live with this disease, I have decided it doesn't really matter what 'label' gets put on me. What is important is that the medication I take helps me to live a stable life. I am happy that you are going to see a pdoctor, as they are truly the only ones to make decisions about medications. I have been on many medications and also combinations over the years, and that can be difficult to get that right adjustment.

Certainly it sounds like you have something that needs attention and the great news today is that there are medications available to help us. Perhaps you just need a higher dosage of Lexapro. I take 45 mg a day. That is a lot but it works for me.

I know the space of 'just not caring'. It is scary and painful. By seeking help you are taking the first steps toward taking care of yourself. Perhaps even saving some important relationships that are valuable in your life. I wish you well. Keep posting, let everyone know how things are going for you

~ Ripka

Fox87 · 01-24-2008, 06:59 AM

Ripka: thnx 4 the support. I'm glad I found these msg. boards. The only thing that I sit and question myself about is that "can I help my situation by getting back in shape and eating right?" The reason I say this is, I didn't have these "problems" when I was 30lbs lighter and was in the gym 5 days a week. I know it's a proven fact that working out relieves stress and I need to get back in the gym. I talked to my dad last night and asked him if he's evr been diagnosed (mom said he was and how she knows this I do not know. They been divorced since I was 2) and he said no. Now, I know the apple doesn't fall far from the tree and I know how he is. He is not a "happy" person and is generally an azz. I don't want to follow his footsteps (drunkard who's liver is shot out and is already in an ALF at 65 yrs old) and want to fix what's going on. Good thing is I don't feel the need to find the answers to my problems at the bottom of a bottle like he did.

I'm gonna talk to my primary first and let him know I'm gonna go to the head shrinker.

steamrollhehe · 01-24-2008, 06:54 PM

Hi Fox,
Welcome to the Boards!!! I am 17 and dxed 3 years ago and totally understand the not caring stuff. Some days I wake up and nothing can make me care about anything and some days I wake up and care about every little thing, including unimportants stuff. It's not my fav.

Are you on any other meds besides Lexapro? Because if you aren't on a mood stablizer and just an anti-depressant, you can become manic. It is a good idea to see a pdoc and I would get a tdoc as well. They help tremdously. Also, I am on Lexapro (15) and it certianly lifts my mood, but I also need the Lamictal to as my pdoc says "give me a ceiling on my room" and the lexapro gives me a floor. So I still bounce around a little, just not nearly as much.

Good luck with you appointment,
--steamroll

seaturtle · 01-24-2008, 07:58 PM

Hi,

Sounds as if you're depressed, for sure. Why BP2 - do you have hypomanias, too?

Let us know how the appointment goes. Steamroll is right; I never found an antidepressant to be that effective, and Lamictal is both a stabilizer and an anti-d.

Glad you're going for help and will get a Dx, look forward to hearing from you again.