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b1028 · 01-28-2008, 01:20 PM

I am new here to this site, but definitly not new to Bipolar. I was diagnosed with Type 1 Bipolar with rapid-cycling tendencies. I was also diagnosed with severe OCD(Obsesive Compulsive Disorder) and DID(Dissociative Identity Disorder) I am looking for people who are willing to be my friends and support. I dont have family support.

As a teen after being diagnosed my stepfather told my mother to choose between him and me. The next day I came home from school and all my stuff was in the yard and the locks had been changed. With all the problems that I am having..it makes it hard for me to think about life in a happy way...can anyone help me find a safe and common ground?

KateMonster · 01-28-2008, 02:15 PM

Hello to you too!

I was diagnosed with bipolar several years ago (and I'm a rapid-cycler too!), and I've been dating a man with OCD for about 4 years.

Anytime you need support or an open ear, I'm here for you. I don't know how DID affects your life, but I've seen first hand how difficult it can be to live with BP and OCD.

b1028 · 01-28-2008, 02:38 PM

Thanks for your reply!
Its always good to know that I am not the only one out there. I am currently unmedicated, although I would like to start. But with the different diagnosises I dont want to be taking a bunch of different pills everyday. Do you have any recomendations?

jeneration2007 · 01-29-2008, 10:56 AM

Hi b1028,

I am happy that you found these boards. I have found a lot of answers on this site, and I hope you can find the support you need.

It is hard to be in a family that does not support you. I grew up with a narcissistic, manipulative, and also bi-polar (as far as I can tell) mother. I have recently been diagnosed with BPD and OCD after years of struggling with a diagnosis of chronic depression that just did not seem to fit. I started taking Lamictal 4 days ago, and I have been on Welbutrin for about 4 months now. I am not yet sure how the Lamictal will work, but I hope it does!

I cannot say that my story is anywhere close to yours, so I do not want to discount your it by saying I completely understand. I can say that I empathize when it comes to dealing with parents and that type of absolute rejection. I can say that I know how hard it is to deal with BPD in everyday life. It has greatly changed how I perform at work and the person I know I should be socially. I desire the "normal" life that seems to happen to people without BPD.

I am glad you are here and that you have found this place to find support. I hope you find what you are looking for.

~J

b1028 · 01-29-2008, 12:46 PM

jeneration2007~
thanks for the reply. i appreciate your support. i am battling within myself right now. i know that i should try to forgive my family for the things they have done, but i can honestly blame them for a lot of my major undoing. I am not passing blame off of myself, but my father started pushing drugs and alchohol on me at the age of 9-10 and that began my dwonword spiral. everytime i asked my family for help to get clean and sober i was laughed at. i guess my biggest issue is feeling like everything is all my fault and that i must have done something wrong for them to 'hate' me. i am fighting tooth and nail to get clean. but everytime i get 2 steps ahead someone or something comes right up and knocks me back 8 steps. i cant seem to get ahead anywhere...