Mild Bipolar Disorder? - Bipolar Disorder Message Board

jmm1966 · 01-30-2008, 12:37 PM

I think I have come to the time that I need to see if I have some sort of disorder. I am a stay-at-home mom with 2 children. Some days are great, but other days, I scream my head off and I can feel my whole body tense up b/c I get so mad at the kids for doing something. No physical contact is made, I just yell and scream and they look at me like I'm nuts. And now I'm starting to wonder if I am. I always feel bad afterwards, and 3 seconds later I could be talking to them in a nice, calm tone (which I should have done to begin with). I feel pathelogical at times w/ my changing, swift shifting moods.

In addition to this, I feel like I have been depressed for months. I just can't even get out of bed in the morning. I lay and sleep in bed in the morning, while the kids watch TV from my bedroom. My husband has already left for work by the time the kids get up. So I just scoop them up and bring them in and go back to sleep. I just can't seem to find the energy to get up until I absolutely HAVE to. Is this depression?

I've also been reading a lot about symptoms, and the spending spree has happened to me, but mine lasted about 3 months. I managed to spend about $6,000 in a couple of months. I had absolutely no regard for the fact that we didn't have the money to afford such purchases, I knew eventually we would pay off the debt w/ tax return money.

I've read a lot about Bipolar Disorder, and I just don't see myself having those classic highs and lows they discuss -- my moods seem to shift minute by minute, and sometimes I just get so angry I want to explode.

This also comes on the heels of my husband having an affair while I was pregnant with our youngest -- this happened during August-December 2006. I took him back and we're trying to work on things, but I feel like I'm just on a treadmill, getting nowhere and bottling up all kinds of feelings.

Maybe if I could just figure out what is wrong with me, and what treatment or doctors I might need to see, then I can start to feel good again, although I am having a hard time remembering the last time I felt great about life in general, and that is really what is prompting me to seek help.

Any help would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.

Julie M.

sassy8 · 01-30-2008, 01:21 PM

Julie It sounds like your under alot of stress. That in itself can make you moody. First step would probably be to go see your pcp and have a physical and talk to that doctor to get a referral. You'll want to rule out any post partum depression. Take care of yourself and good luck sassy

ssforcey · 01-30-2008, 01:25 PM

I've been there and done it. I hate all the screaming and yelling. I'm certainly not the most patient person in the world but FAR from the least. I've been diagnosed at cyclothymic...just a milder form of bipolar from my understanding. Take a look at that and see what you think. I'm sorry you're going thru this. I know it's hard. Are you currently medicated at all?

bellablue2 · 01-30-2008, 01:48 PM

Hi Julie: I feel for you. I truly believe that a tramatic event could sent you up for depression or bi-polar. When my ex cheated on me I started taking prozac. After about 4 years I finally found a doc who told me that the anti depressants I was taking pushed me into mania. I to had a child and felt the same way. I think maybe you should talk to a doc. I am on med's and I still just go off on my son he's 7. BUT he has ADHD. This is very hard to deal with. I see a therapist who helps me find ways to try and stop myself from going off. A mood stabalizer like Lamitcal really really has helped me.

Keep in touch.
Jean

aprilflowers29 · 01-30-2008, 11:41 PM

Hi Julie, it sounds like you are and have been going through some ups and downs. Whether or not this is bipolar is something a mental health professional needs to address. There are so many medications and some of them are not good for bipolar as they can cause mania. Don't give in or give up and always look up and be honest with your doctor. Your off to a great start just by asking for help.