bipolar 2 - Bipolar Disorder Message Board

sue 1963 · 04-21-2008, 05:28 PM

I have been diagnosed with bipolar 2 last october when i was admitted into hospital. I thought it was depression only. I am on wellebutrin, lithium and a small dose of seroquil at night to sleep. I often cry still. Some days are fine and others i feel like i dont have a life and i couldnt care less if i didnt. what is going on with me?. I wish i could control the tears when i feel sad. I stay up at night so I can have time just for me to cry without anyone asking questions which i couldnt answer anyway.

sue 1963 · 04-21-2008, 06:01 PM

I am looking forward to having a reply as i am really unsure of myself at this time and this bipolar diagnosis. thanks

DebGrl · 04-21-2008, 06:08 PM

Sue1963,
Welcome to the wonderful world of Bi-Polar, what a trip, your great one moment and the next you can't control the tears
Sometimes I feel like what am I doing in this crazy world and the next I can't figure out why I felt that way!
I've been in and out of the hospital for this one med. after another, "YUCK"
My place of choice for crying is the shower, or like you say when know ones around, because there is no way to explain why your crying
Oh well, I,d love to chat with you,
Please take care and know you aren't alone on this hellish trip were on
Gentle Hugz, Debora E.

cyclomaniac · 04-21-2008, 07:01 PM

so i take it the drugs you're on aren't doing anything for you? i will share my experience with you and hopefully something i have to say helps.

i tried wellbutrin when i was first diagnosed and WOW did that do a number on me. made me manic or i had a mixed episode, i don't know what...all i know is i had never had that intense of a mood EVER. worst i've felt in my whole life. then my doc switched me to abilify, which has done wonders for my irritability as well as my grandiose opinions of myself (didn't understand that they were grandiose until i got put in my place by the meds and had "normal" opinions of myself. i still find myself wondering if those grandiose ideas were right, though...BAD! stop thinking that!! i think that's the behavioral side of bp). the depression still remained, though, and increasing the abilify wasn't helping with that, so my doc put me on lamictal as well and let me tell you i have had the best four weeks of my life while taking this drug...wanting to crawl in a hole and hide for no reason at all (and actually following through on that) and worse, those feelings have all disappeared. additionally, the anxiety about EVERYTHING that i have felt all my life is gone. the past three weeks i have been able to accomplish more than i have in the past YEAR, no kidding. and not because i'm manic either...i had no idea i could feel this good.

so...anyway. there is hope. stick around on this board and ask lots of questions...this board is awesome for that. i would also suggest that if you don't see the meds working for you and it has been since october, see if you can try some other things (abilify and lamictal get my vote, though they work differently for everyone...luckily they were the first drugs i tried, too, and they have worked surprisingly fast).

please keep seeking help. there is hope!

klyn07 · 04-21-2008, 07:09 PM

I am so sorry you are down. I can relate. I go in my room and cry sometimes and my kids or husband ask why and I really have no idea. Some times the simplest thing overwhelms me and it makes me cry. My tdoc told me to try positive affirmations to boost my mind into a state where I can handle things without tears more often.