Having Up and Downs Cant Find a Job!!! Depressed :( - Bipolar Disorder Message Board

craziunique · 04-22-2008, 07:23 PM

I just need to vent a bit.

I'm currently working from home 20 hours a week. My boss cut my hours from 40 to 20 since I couldn't make to work on time. Jezz - its sort of hard to do that when your burnt out after working there for over 5 years and my bipolar got in the way. Tons of problems in those years. I wasn't told I was bipolar until August of 2006 - Ya un-medicated for several years!! That was a lot of fun!!

So needlessly to say I " was" on top my game and slowly got demoted to where I'm at now. So my self esteem is low at times when I think about - well I try not to think about it, but its hard not to. They tried to push me out - but I wouldn't let them.

But now in this job market, its really hard to find a job. I have to start over. I'm barely getting by. I think back and I ask myself - what happen? I was doing good a few years ago? then the bottom fell out. But one thing I do realized is, that my current job, there is NO place to grow. Tons of rules.

I think I will be happy once I free myself away from this company.......

Llama · 04-22-2008, 10:32 PM

Hey crazi, it's alright to vent!

Sometimes we just need a change of scenery. It is very common for people to change jobs and very uncommon for someone to stay in one career/place for their entire life. Funny how that works, huh? Well I wish you all the luck in the world in finding a new job. It does sound like you are burnt out where you are now.

craziunique · 04-23-2008, 09:09 AM

LLAMA,

Thanks for the words of hope!!

I have in the same line of work for over 12 years!! I'm really burnt out. I want to do something 360 from what I have been doing. I complete change. My brain needs it in a bad way!!

crazi

katlin09 · 04-23-2008, 03:44 PM

Is there anyway you couuld work for a temp agency until you find something else you like? Maybe try out a few different things for a while?

craziunique · 04-23-2008, 06:48 PM

I did sign up for a temp agency and even with them, I didnt get any calls for any jobs. Its that bad out there! I live in South Florida. It seem where I live its hardest hit with the recession, because we had the biggest housing market - then - bye bye it went! And so did the jobs.....

I did have a interview on Tuesday. I wont know until Friday if I have the job or not. ( fingers crossed )