seaturtle

Hello, every good person here,

For the last couple of weeks, I am so high-strung, can't sit, can't even read, gardening, walking, scrubbing. I hate it. Once again, I am realizing that I have as little control over the hypomanic states as I do over the depressions.

I get much more agitated as the day goes on, and by evening, I am going full speed ahead. I don't want to eat, can't stop...and I do much want to settle down and write or do some art.

Does anyone have this diurnal pattern, and any suggestions? I am seeing pdoc every 2 weeks, taking my Lamictal and some Xanax (not nearly as much as prescribed, Ativan for sleep, Wellbutrin 225. So I perhaps need to up the Lamictal?

I am so manic that I feel a bit as if I am going out of control - hyper, then so angry, then depressed underneath that, then the black hole and back again.

Sigh, here we go again. thanks, everyone, for listening; even if no one replies, it is comforting just to speak to those who know.

I hope everyone is doing well. My knowledge that you all are out there struggling, too, give me comfort.

Peace to us all, if we ever get there,
Seaturtle