Listen to the doctors! (sorry kinda long)
Since I am both Bipolar II and ADD I was prescibed Lamictal and Adderall. Well, if you are Bipolar please don't skip the Lamictal and go straight for the feel good drugs like I did. Wowzers. Talk about a mood rollercoaster. I got high off just the regular dose and I was already manic and off my meds when I did this. The Adderall actually killed my happy little hypomanic high and made me "high" but in a bad way and then depressed! I ended up taking more Adderall because the feeling was just that bad coming off it. This of course, made it worse and I ended up in psych ward after just two days. I overdosed pretty bad. I could have died. I was vomiting and confused. My heart rate was abnormal. And the whole time I was in the ER I was dancing around and singing. Totally manic even when it wore off. I also got something like a Tourette's like tic, just saying random things and twitching. But I was totally oblivious unable to control it. They sent in a social worker, I could not even tell you what I said to her. For starters when I took this med I knew for the first time in a long time I was heading into mania. So this excerbated it.
I had been off Lamictal and my Luvox (though that was a horrible SSRI) for a month thinking they were making me fat and dull. I started working out 5 days a week. I had boundless energy. Very high sex drive. But not much real focus. Racing thoughts. Not sleeping much. Even a little paranoia. Looking back, it really wasn't too great. This happened all within 4 weeks. Now, I knew I really was what they said I was....Bipolar.
I neglected to tell my doctor any of this (that I was off meds) except the loss of focus. So doctor gave me Adderall too. Yikes. You HAVE TO BE ON A MOOD STABILIZER before you take this. ANd the doctor told me that's what made me flip out. I was unmedicated. I impulsively took more thinking it would make me feel better. I am off Adderall now and may not go back on it until I stablize. He also gave me low dose Prozac to deal with the depression it caused, but three days in psych ward (mainly sleeping) and tons of Ativan later I feel myself again. A little tiny bit manic, but much much better. The Ativan was the first thing to stop the mania and man did they dope me on it. 2mg every 6 hours. The nurses were saying, "you're no fun anymore." Haha. Though I do not take Ativan anymore. Too addictive. Just a hospital thing.
Mania can really trick you into thinking everything is okay. But in the back of my mind something told me, "I feel too good." This is not right. I had convinced myself I was charismatic, well liked, and gregarious, and I was. I was very social and making lots of friends. Type A personality all the way. I was meant for great things. But in this state you have no idea how to actually make it happen. At least, I didn't give myself a chance to when I took that speed without a mood stabilizer.
So just a warning to any of you taking this med combo. I have learned the hard way to take my meds the way I'm told! The consequences can be disasterous! I have made a commitment this time to do as they say. I finally admitted I am bipolar whether I like it or not.