I am new here and I am glad to have found a place where I can talk about this disease. I was recently diagnosed with rapid cycling bi-polar and I am a combination of relieved and scared. I have had symptoms since I was a teen but my parents first believed that my angry outbursts were rebellion. I went on Lexapro in college and it seemed to help with the depression I was having but not with my angry episodes.
Fast forward three years...I am happily married and living in a new city...everything seems to be going well and started an internship with a major company. Then about 4 months ago I came back from a day at work and I start having crying jags and panic attacks. This continued for 7 days straight. My husband had to call my boss and tell him that I was very sick and would not be returning to the job. I found a psydoc and he took me off the Lexapro and put me on Lamictal. Things have really been up and down since then. I was very disappointed that I had to quit my job and all my classes and now I am having to start over. I just feel so fragile and I am nervous about making any kind of commitments for fear that I will have another episode and ruin it. I am also nervous about the Lamictal...about a month ago I went into a major depression and my doc just said it was me reacting to the upping of the meds. I thought the meds were supposed to help depression instead of cause it.
Anyways, this post is getting long so I'll try to wrap it up. Mostly I am just bummed out and scared about this diagnosis and I am just feeling a bit lost. Thanks for listening. Kitty