patteecake

I was diagnosed with BP at 18. I've been hospitalized twice and on 8 different medications all which didn't work. I am disabled mentally and Physically. I have Ehlers Danlos Syndrome. Its a connective tissue disoder involving tissue that is lax in the body causing dislocation of arms and legs. I have issues with the connective tissue in my brain, it doesn't want to work with any of the BP meds. So far this has been the magic pill.

I have been having 1-3 aniexty attacks a day. Some paranoia. When i was in the hospital i took it in the morning. Now i take it at 1pm. I don't feel tired much and i'm able to make it through the day mostly with out napping. Still having a hard time sleeping at nite and going to bed. I'm up late and i sleep in most days i have to push my self to get up and go to the gym. I go 2-3 times a week. I've lost 5lbs so far. I'm 191lbs. Doping things has been rough too, i was depressed the first week i was on it and asked when does it get any better? In the second week, so far i've been happy. The pill in an hr or 2 calms me. I'm on 25mgs.

I live with 10 people so its been rough. There was 11 but my sister's husband went in the Army 5mths ago. My sister gave birth to a boy 5mths ago, My sister got married before her husband left as well so she could go with him. Its tight quarters, i share a bedroom with my son. Its alot of work helping my sister with the boys, im exhusted and worn out from playing with the boys in the backyard, making bottles etc.. I needed to move out so i spoke with my counslor which i've been going to a yr this Sept. Ever since my sister moved back home, my I have finished the last process of getting my medical papers for Mental health housing. They pay 70% and i pay 30% with my SSI to live. I have to pay electricity and anything else i want like phone, cable etc..

I'm a single mother and my son has BP as well. He bangs his head, he has attacks of aniecty and panic attacks. He will scream and be inconsorable for days. I let him cry and it passes. He is delayed in alot of areas plus he has Ehlers danlos as well. He is in a special school where he recieves ot, pt and speech. So far he is progressing very well. I take the day one day at a time.