I want to feel good, but I don't. I have good moods and than I crash into depression. I hate it, now that I know there is a reason behind it bums me even more that I am down.
My husband will be out of town for almost 3 weeks, that makes it even harder on me. I have to be mom and dad during that time.
I want to feel better. I want to go outside and scream that at the top of my lungs. I feel like me but just not quite.
I dont want to go and have my meds all messed with, but I want to feel better and stay better. I see for the first time my PDOC on the 17th. I dont know what to think.