Are these symptoms? Does anyone else have them?
Does anyone else have trouble with a constant altering of perception/perspective? What's right and wrong, good and bad, helpful and unhelpful.
Since I was diagnosed, and after my two hospitalizations, I can't seem to stop asking myself why all this has happened to me, what has caused it and what I can do about it. I've read a lot about the disorder, been on countless amounts of websites, found therapy to be unhelpful and my psychiatrist to be uncaring as far as helping me figure this illness out. Support groups only make me relate my own struggles to other peoples and blow things more out of proportion.
Medication has helped balance out my moods, but my way of thinking seems to be altered at a state that I can't seem to have any confidence in any of my opinions anymore. I can see two, sometimes three or four sides to every issue and can't pick one.
I have a lot of trouble with persistent thoughts throughout my upbringing, childhood, things that I said, things people have said to me, what they meant...etc. I just can't stop thinking and over analyzing and sometimes its just hell.
Sorry if this is rambling. Does anyone have any thoughts on this or similar experiences?