Re: 3 weeks post surgery...Depression pretty severe
The surgery that I had was pretty major, it involved cutting the tibia from my knee, moving it over 2mm, raising it with a cement lift underneath, reattaching it with bone grafts on each side and screwing it in place with 3 screws on the top. I'm in an immobilizing brace for 2 to 3 months that I have to wear 24/7 and it's very uncomfortable especially at night to sleep. I am on very heavy pain meds Fentanyl, Oxycontin, Oxycodone and Ibuprophen so the pain is being controlled as much as it can....but at times the bone pain is just uncontrollable.
Now that all of the nerves are starting to come back to life, there are times when I just get shooting spikes of pain up and down my shin bone. I should be somewhat pain free by 6 months and completely healed in 1 year at which time if this did what it was supposed to do, then they will do the same thing to my right knee.
I keep the TV on and watch movies with my 18 yr old son, who is my basic care giver during the day, but how much TV can you watch? People came to visit the first 2 weeks, but then of course they get busy, etc. Which it's fine because I don't want to be around people, don't want to talk to them on the phone, pretty much just want to be left alone. I'm only sleeping about 2 and a half to 3 hours a night and everything is just out of whack.
I see both my pdoc and tdoc on Wednesday and am going to get something for sleep. I'm going to go back to my office for a few hours a day on Monday and maybe that will help get me out of this fog...I just know I'm slipping fast...and I don't want to get to where I was 8 weeks ago which was inpatient hospital for an overdose, you know?
anyways, thanks for your response and I hope your doing better, I know you've had a hard time lately as well.