I am completely befuddled.
I was doing well on Lexapro, until it induced hypo-mania, my first reality check that I did indeed have a mood disorder. Then, on lithium, I was doing great, except for short-term memory problems.
Now I'm switching to lamictal, and I'm stable, really more logical than I've ever been. (My husband loves that!) But I wake up irritated or sad, with the thoughts of who hurt me, why me, etc. I have to control myself from spiraling into a muddy pit... Fortunately the negative feelings dissipate throughout the morning. It's really weird - before any of my problems began (in 2003) I was such a morning person. I woke up happy and looking forward to the day, like I knew something special was going to happen, or at least that it would be a good day.
I can't understand this problem because lamictal, albeit a mood stabilizer, is supposed to focus on depression. Is the hypomania that the lithium controlled back? Is it a negative hypomania?
I'm almost ready to go back to just lithium. I'd rather be forgetful than angry/sad.