Hi everyone. My names Dan, Im 24 and I was diagnosed in March as having Bipolar I, Manic Depressant with a personality disorder and anxiety disorder. I also have as the doctor called it "a case of SIV" (Self Inflicted Violence) nothing suicidal. I was in the hospital for 4 months, was released middle of July, and I've been trying to get back into my life.
I've become extremely anti-social, cutting myself off from everyone and I tend to avoid populated places to avoid being brought into a social conflict with people.
I guess I'm just looking for someone or a few people to chat with or just be able to get some things out of my head. I find it hard to express myself socially, I feel like I lack the skills to even have conversations with people. I'm coming here because I find it much easier to let everything out through text.
Thanks to anyone that responds its very much appreciated.
~Dan
Hi Dan and welcome. I am fairly new here and I found everyone to be very nice and willing to post and help in any way they can. I know sometimes it's good just to know youare not alone. There are people that have the same problems and go through the same things you do.
I hope that you find what you are looking for here and if you ever need to chat feel free to message me. I am always willing to talk and am honest to a fault at times.
I tend to be very self-destructive. When everything is going well in my life, when I fall into a comfortable routine that's when I get antsy. For some reason when things go well for a time Ifeel the need to stir up the pot. I used to hurt myself but it seems I have left that behind, for now anyway.
But I hope you have a good experience here. Let me know if there's anything I can do to help.
Hey Caren, the meds they gave me when i left the hospital were Zoloft, Trazodone and Ativan. The Ativan they told me only to take when i felt my anxiety getting out of control. Thanks for the welcome
Yea TC i have the same problem with the whole stirring up things when it seems everything is going well. I cant really put my finger on what it is but whenever i get my life on track I feel the need to take risks and I usually ruin the nice track my life was on, either causing myself to quit my job or just drop off the radar so to speak for a few weeks.
I use to be heavily into playing soccer all year round, but I quit it a few months before I went to the hospital and now I just dont have the motivation to go and start it back up. That and I lost a lot of my friends, I just feel so awkward around them, I cant talk to them about things I'm feeling or thinking cause I feel like I'm dumping my problems on them and I dont want them to feel like im looking for pity or fishing for compliments.
But thanks for the offer TC, Im sure I will take you up on the offer
Welcome Dan.
I only just joined myself. I am sure that you will find some support here. Do try and reach out to at least a couple people in your life though. Try. I know how hard it can be. But try. I have been brushing friends off because I can't deal with being around other people. But I have a couple that I have "let in" and I think it helps to have some contact...when you are ready of course.
Andrea
