Hi everyone. Its nice to know im not the only one out there. I was diagnosed with Bipolar II a couple of years ago. I was on medication,but stopped cold turkey in Jan 08. I've always been independent and hated the thought of having to depend on something just to feel normal. However, I feel like i'm getting worse. I messed around with a guy who was married and now im paying the price. I would shop non stop. I have a steady job, however its an extremely stressful career. My life is a rollercoaster ride that i am dying to get off of. I don't talk to anyone about my situation because they either make fun of me or lecture me. This is not how i pictured my life to be.
Wecome to the Board, a safe place of no judgements. First of all I noticed you are in TX, I hope you are in a safe place and weathered the storm. I hear that your life is pretty upside down right now. Are you seeing a Psychiatrist? Maybe that would be a good first step...if it's something you feel able to do. There are quite a few good medications out right now that can help people get their BP to a manageable state so that living a productive life is possible.
Keep posting here and know that anytime you need a place to yell, laugh, cry whicever we're here for you.
I know i should be on meds. They were working. And you would think that I would do it since last time I got off I ended up in a Psychiatric institute. I was there for about a week. It was awful, at least for me. They were all nice, but I was scared and emotionally unstable. I cried all day, everyday. the other patients would try to calm me down, but i was upset and didn't want people around me. That was last year. I never want to go back. I just wish there was some other way to get the medications i need instead of having to pop in pills everyday for the rest of my life. Its irritating.