Hi there everyone!
Let me start by saying thank you to everyone for their posts. Reading them has been a comfort.
I have been struggling with something for the last little while, and I was hoping that some of you might be able to help me to understand this challenging healing process.
Since last April when I was diagnosed BPII with anxiety disorder I have been working hard seeing a psychiatrist, a psychologist and even a naturopath to try and get back to normal.
The thing is that I think that I am starting to get a good balance of medication sorted out, to the point where I am functioning at work, and going through each day with a certain amount of enjoyment.
My question is this. Is this where I should be? Is this the end of my journey? Because it feels like I enjoyed life a whole lot more when I was manic. And perhaps I am struggling with this new slow pace and maybe I need to adjust. Is this what normal is? Life before meds was exciting and vivid (I am aware that I am leaving out all of the other things that life was before meds...wild mood swings, dangerous behaviour, anger, extra-marital affairs...the list goes on...)
Have some of you sorted out your meds and felt real happiness, real excitement in your day? Because my days feel a little dull. Perhaps this is in contrast to my manic self? Do I need to adjust my meds or do I need to alter my perception of happiness? Or do I just need to be a little more patient? Tell me your story...Is it possible to be medicated and truly happy? Do you wake up in the morning, excited to start your day? Do you laugh from the pit of your stomach? (These are the things that I miss)
Thanks again to everyone.
Love and hugs,