gaaaaaaahhhhhh! you know how in cartoons sometimes the character's head will spin around in a complete circle, eye balls bulging out of their heads, pulling their hair out, screaming? that's how i feel right now! i'm not doing those things..but i feel like just hollering and making a racket! i feel like i have so much pent up energy inside.
i am VERY irritable and angry today. i flew off the handle because i could not get my printer to work. screaming fit.
i have school work to do and i do not want to do it. instead i want to write a book, concentrate on something meaningful to me!
i am also ready to cry at the drop of a hat...i am NOT a crier, so this really says something. it takes a lot to make me cry.
sorry, i just have to get this out sometimes because i can't keep it in any more.
does anyone know of any home remedies/relaxation techniques that work? it seems like NOTHING i am doing works....if i take a hot bath, it's still there..if i go out for a walk, it's still there. i am starting to get so frustrated with the fact that i can't seem to control it myself.
i have this overwhelming urge to just spend money and laugh and be happy about it, as if that will make me feel better.
i have an appointment tomorrow with my psychiatric nurse, so i am looking forward to that. i just wish i could help myself..there must be some sort of coping strategy i can use that will at least make things more bearable, and not so completely out of whack.