I am just so tired and discouraged...recovering from surgery has been way more difficult this time, because the BP Depression has been so much more active. I can't seem to climb out of this black hole....I know my family is tired of dealing with me, so I just stay in my room and try to leave everyone alone. Now as if I didn't feel bad enough, this morning I woke up with a fever and sore throat and just, feeling like crap....I'm so tired of it all, the pain, the sadness...all of it.
That's a rough trip, I'm so sorry. Does your family give off signs that they're tired of dealing with you? Are there any friends who could come to visit, maybe? Staying alone in your room has to be the worst to deepen that depression.
Have you been in touch with pdoc, too?
Gosh, I don't know what else to say, except that we're here to keep you company at least in cyberspace - and to have you know there are people who will listen, care for you, and certainly understand depression. And pain...sigh...too.
you know how family can be...my husband is just....well an *** I guess...he's one of the "why don't you just buck up and get over it" types...so it's just easier to stay away, by myself. I even moved a cooler in here with me for food, so I don't have to go out for that.....it's like i've moved out without the expense....i'm so tired....just getting out of bed wears me out. oh well... same ole same ole.
Yes, that "buck up" stuff. I always kind of wish those people would go through a similar experience themselves. I wonder if they would just "buck up." Usually, they're the ones who just collapse.
A cooler? Whew, this has to be a bad one for you. Sounds as if you are, though, taking the best care you can of yourself.
Home health or visiting nurses a possibility?
Are you feeling at all better with time - and how long does your doctor estimate you'll be feeling this bad?
Hugs and hugs, kmit. Maybe if you can hang onto the thought that this will get better with time, it might help.
With you in spirit, at least. Keep in touch, okay?
I forgot to ask whether you've come down with flu or something? And also to ask you if the worst part of this rough period for you is the knee issue or the depression?
Just trying to know what's what so maybe I can say something helpful.
Sorry i've not replied, yes I had to flu, to add to everything else. i've had more trouble with the depression lately than the knee...even coming to this board is depressing, you are the only one who ever talks to me...but oh well it doesn't matter...thanks for your time.
