Sunka

Isn't it OK to avoid someone that aggravates your symptoms and triggers irritability and racing thoughts and moodiness?

I'm having issues with my BF's mom; she doesn't like me because I don't cater to her and I don't like her for, well, lots of reasons (drinking, irresponsibility, etc etc) I don't like it when she comes over - I tense up and shut down & then feel obligated to disinfect the bathroom if she uses it. But she does come over because my BF lives with me. He stays by my side because I become very unstable when he's not around - he's my rock & is precious to me.

I'm confused about how to handle this, because logic tells me that if someone is toxic to me then it's acceptable to not be around them or have them come around me. But she IS his mom & it's also logical that he should see her at least occasionally, right? My MH doc is neutral on this, and my case manager is on my side but tells me that maybe my BF should go visit her without me...but then I fly around the house & get all manic & my mind starts racing about horrible things happening to him.

I have been off meds for a long time but recently re-started taking Geodon. I'm thinking about telling my MH doc that the dosage needs to be increased a little because of the irritability & racing thoughts. **sigh** Any coping suggestions would be appreciated. Thanks for listening!