There are programs out there for mental health that are based on your income. I don't know where you live but I would call your local state agency and ask. If they don't know, keep calling around. I pay $5 to see the doc, $6 for the therapist and my meds are free through the medical company. If not for all those things I would be in big trouble. If you think this is something affecting you I would seek help, especially because it can affect your daughter. Bp is a progressive disease, more so when you are not taking meds for it, and if this is what you have the problem will not get better on its own.
I hope that you find the right people to talk to and the help you need. Please keep us posted.